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I'm a 33 year old & Married to a consensual cheating husband, I've been a cuckquean off and on for 18 years & I love meeting other Cuckqueans.
When a girl wants to fuck your husband and tells you she could have him if she wants him, you’re torn. The humiliation side of you loves this, but the reality, makes you angry.
Maybe you know it’s not true, but the fact that she actually believes this, rubs you wrong. All the terrible situations seem sexy and ideal, until you realize she isn’t playing a part.
I learned this in one of our last experiences. Her sneaky and superior attitude were such a turn on that I let it continue, knowing it would ultimately cause actual issues. Tumblr portrayed CQ experiences are so much different than actual ones, I think they’re absolutely capable of working but the mental fortitude of the cuckquean would have to be bulletproof.
I’m thankful for all the amazing CQ tumblrs that give real advice, because I think anyone interested in this kink should know the mental capacity required. You can’t just think you aren’t jealous and setup to have your bf/husband fuck a girl without preparing yourself for the plethora of emotions you are bound to experience. And although these emotions get easier, I haven’t found them to completely go away yet. When we first started I would have mini-breakdowns, emotional fits that would erupt and made me want to scream, cry, run away. When these emotions came to a head, the storm would shift, negative emotions would dissolve into arousal. Each and every encounter I’ve experienced this, but each time the shift would come sooner than before. My last experience was almost instant, I had a slight moment of regret but before the storm could fully form clouds, I was aroused and the storm was gone.
I think it’s important to not skips steps on the ladder when you’re first starting out. Minimize these storms, but also trust your gut instinct if the feelings are persistent. The order of operations for us was:
Husband talks to girls through text
Goes and meets girl
Has sex with girl
Sex in our home, out of sight, with girl (I can only hear)
I watch him sex with girl
I participate
Although 5 & 6 happened the same night, I still had a tiny moment of uncertainty.
If I would have skipped to step 5 I probably would have had a cosmic meltdown that I would later apologize for when I realized how arousing it was. I wanted to minimize apologies and meltdowns.
It’s also okay if you don’t want to participate, I would rather just watch or listen, or have him do it elsewhere and I’m very vocal with my husband with what I’m okay with at the tjme. It’s okay to not feel ok with something, and to later feel ok and want something, and alternatively it’s ok to think your ok with something and not want to do it again. My husband is a great listener, and I act as his adviser, he knows I only have our family’s well being in mind. I can be catty, I can be unreasonable and I vocally express when i realize I am, this validates my feelings to myself, and my husband.
Expect a lot of talks. Communication is key, and admitting when you’re being unreasonable or jealous is important because being hot and cold without explanation is confusing to men. I’m still learning to let emotions simmer before making decisions. You have to give yourself time to filter out what is jealousy, anger, a bad moment, frustration, and even shock before you make big declarations. I advise my husband but I always give him the authority to do what he wants. The fact that he takes my advice and honest emotions to heart, shows me I can trust him, and that we are on the same page.
I frequently send anonymous questions to CQ bloggers for their input. These other blogs with amazing advice help me feel more grounded and less alone, I love getting their input because I realize they have been doing it longer, they have the experience and often times I tell my husband “I wish there was a big group of CQ women, we would sit down and have coffee or tea and pick each others brains and get advice that only other CQs could giveâ€. I think it would be amazing! The psychology of a CQ still blows my own mind, and as I experience things, I’m impressed with my own mental growth. CQ women have to be so self aware, and brutally honest with our partners and ourselves, realizing and calling ourselves out. This isn’t the lifestyle for pride or anyone who has issues admitting when they’re wrong.
The truth is that being a CQ and being in that relationship can be an amazing experience, but don’t think it couldn’t ruin your relationship/marriage. If you don’t communicate and you aren’t honest, you could cause a lot of damage to yourself, and anyone else involved.
Be safe and responsible, mind your priorities, and decipher fantasy from reality. No one else is going to care about your marriage/relationship/family as much as you and your significant other/spouse. And you might happen upon that real home wrecker who will test the bonds of your marriage, and without communication you won’t be ready or even aware.
And yet it remains It’s my humiliation fantasy to find someone my husband loves to fuck behind my back, and in plain view. His heart and love will always be mine but I’d love for his dick to belong to someone else and for him to tell me such. My ultimate goal is a life of chastity, I feel like my mental capacity has upgraded to this point, and now it’s all I want.
CUCKQUEANING
It’s really hard being a humiliation loving CQ.
When a girl wants to fuck your husband and tells you she could have him if she wants him, you’re torn. The humiliation side of you loves this, but the reality, makes you angry.
Maybe you know it’s not true, but the fact that she actually believes this, rubs you wrong. All the terrible situations seem sexy and ideal, until you realize she isn’t playing a part.
I learned this in one of our last experiences. Her sneaky and superior attitude were such a turn on that I let it continue, knowing it would ultimately cause actual issues. Tumblr portrayed CQ experiences are so much different than actual ones, I think they’re absolutely capable of working but the mental fortitude of the cuckquean would have to be bulletproof.
I’m thankful for all the amazing CQ tumblrs that give real advice, because I think anyone interested in this kink should know the mental capacity required. You can’t just think you aren’t jealous and setup to have your bf/husband fuck a girl without preparing yourself for the plethora of emotions you are bound to experience. And although these emotions get easier, I haven’t found them to completely go away yet. When we first started I would have mini-breakdowns, emotional fits that would erupt and made me want to scream, cry, run away. When these emotions came to a head, the storm would shift, negative emotions would dissolve into arousal. Each and every encounter I’ve experienced this, but each time the shift would come sooner than before. My last experience was almost instant, I had a slight moment of regret but before the storm could fully form clouds, I was aroused and the storm was gone.
I think it’s important to not skips steps on the ladder when you’re first starting out. Minimize these storms, but also trust your gut instinct if the feelings are persistent. The order of operations for us was:
Husband talks to girls through text
Goes and meets girl
Has sex with girl
Sex in our home, out of sight, with girl (I can only hear)
I watch him sex with girl
I participate
Although 5 & 6 happened the same night, I still had a tiny moment of uncertainty.
If I would have skipped to step 5 I probably would have had a cosmic meltdown that I would later apologize for when I realized how arousing it was. I wanted to minimize apologies and meltdowns.
It’s also okay if you don’t want to participate, I would rather just watch or listen, or have him do it elsewhere and I’m very vocal with my husband with what I’m okay with at the tjme. It’s okay to not feel ok with something, and to later feel ok and want something, and alternatively it’s ok to think your ok with something and not want to do it again. My husband is a great listener, and I act as his adviser, he knows I only have our family’s well being in mind. I can be catty, I can be unreasonable and I vocally express when i realize I am, this validates my feelings to myself, and my husband.
Expect a lot of talks. Communication is key, and admitting when you’re being unreasonable or jealous is important because being hot and cold without explanation is confusing to men. I’m still learning to let emotions simmer before making decisions. You have to give yourself time to filter out what is jealousy, anger, a bad moment, frustration, and even shock before you make big declarations. I advise my husband but I always give him the authority to do what he wants. The fact that he takes my advice and honest emotions to heart, shows me I can trust him, and that we are on the same page.
I frequently send anonymous questions to CQ bloggers for their input. These other blogs with amazing advice help me feel more grounded and less alone, I love getting their input because I realize they have been doing it longer, they have the experience and often times I tell my husband “I wish there was a big group of CQ women, we would sit down and have coffee or tea and pick each others brains and get advice that only other CQs could giveâ€. I think it would be amazing! The psychology of a CQ still blows my own mind, and as I experience things, I’m impressed with my own mental growth. CQ women have to be so self aware, and brutally honest with our partners and ourselves, realizing and calling ourselves out. This isn’t the lifestyle for pride or anyone who has issues admitting when they’re wrong.
The truth is that being a CQ and being in that relationship can be an amazing experience, but don’t think it couldn’t ruin your relationship/marriage. If you don’t communicate and you aren’t honest, you could cause a lot of damage to yourself, and anyone else involved.
Be safe and responsible, mind your priorities, and decipher fantasy from reality. No one else is going to care about your marriage/relationship/family as much as you and your significant other/spouse. And you might happen upon that real home wrecker who will test the bonds of your marriage, and without communication you won’t be ready or even aware.
And yet it remains It’s my humiliation fantasy to find someone my husband loves to fuck behind my back, and in plain view. His heart and love will always be mine but I’d love for his dick to belong to someone else and for him to tell me such. My ultimate goal is a life of chastity, I feel like my mental capacity has upgraded to this point, and now it’s all I want.